It's not green!

I am so excited! I couldn't afford to go and have my hair colored and highlighted when I had it cut this week, so I took a risk and did it myself! Actually, Michael helped me a little. It is a little darker than what I am use to, and I miss my multicolor highlights and low lights, but I do not miss the gray! Mostly, I am so thankful that it did not turn out green or orange:)

I discovered though that I have a little bit of vanity when it comes to my hair. I suppose I have always known this, but having to face the fact that I couldn't "go and have my hair done" was a tough one for me. It was one of my indulgences, a quiet and peaceful time to be pampered. Mind you- I could care less about my nails, makeup, jewelry, and even clothes. I am pretty simple and low budget when it comes to those areas of life. But my hair...only the best will do. Silly, I know. So while this may seem like a trivial post to some- it is a big step for me. Only one question remains...will I go back to the salon to have my color done, or will I stick with the $8 box solution from Target? To be continued......

Song of my heart

This morning my heart is singing praises to my Lord Jesus. Here are the lyrics that it sings- http://www.christianlyricsonline.com/artists/third-day/king-of-glory.html. Click and listen.

I have no where else to turn but to Him during this (or an any) season of life. The waiting for a job for Michael is at times, down right painful-physically, emotionally, spiritually. I am thankful that I have ben blessed to live in this great Nation, but at times I think that living here can be a bit of a curse. Our culture is driven by the right here and right now mentality. We find it so very hard to wait for anything- food, clothes, music, entertainment, results-you name it. What we want, we get, and frankly, we think that we deserve it.

Through the past few weeks in Bible Study we have been walking with Jesus to the Cross, and this week, beyond. God's Word has really penetrated my heart with a deeper knowledge that I deserve nothing but death. But God, in His infinite mercy and grace, extends His love to me through His Son, Jesus. If there was another way for man's sin debt to be paid, God would have come up with that plan, but there was no other way. Only His perfect, Holy Son could be the Passover Lamb. It was for that reason that Jesus endured the Cross, the most painful and humiliating form of punishment. He removed His royal garments to be clothed in nothing but the sins of all this world, past, present, and future; so that those that were given to Him and believe in Him would be free from that sin forever! So while my family endures the waiting of God's provision of a job, a new home, new schools, a new place to show His love to others, I can only praise my Lord for what He has done for me and for all who believe that He alone is The King, God's Son! May His Name be lifted high!!

On the come back and entering new territory

This week I have had a great turn around. I am feeling so much better! I have entered the land of the living again. So good to not just be sitting on the sofa all day. I am thankful for the quick healing I have experienced. Modern medicine is simply amazing. We have been richly blessed during this time, and I praise God for His love and provision.

Also, I have had the unique opportunity to guide Madeline through a wonderful weekend filled with scripture and Truth of what God has in store for her over the next number of years. She is no longer my little girl anymore. She is blossoming into a young lady, and while my heart is saddened, I am also very excited to see her become all that God has created her to be. As we journeyed through the Passport2Purity series, she was able to see how God has only the best in store for her. But to achieve that, she has a responsibility to put Him first in everything. Part of me struggled with asking her to take a stand and be very different from what the world wants/expects for young people (even within Christian circles), especially when I did not walk that road myself. But I know that through the power of the Holy Spirit that dwells within her, she will be able to live in this world, but not be of the world. I know He will be able to carry her through the challenges of the teen years- friends, peer pressure, boys, figuring out who she is both inside and out. I also trust that God will provide Michael and I with the necessary wisdom and guidance to help her. I just pray that she will know that Mike and I will always be her biggest fans and that we will be there every step of the way during this journey.

Time...

Funny thing about time, it passes so very slowly when you are doing nothing. I know that is stating the obvious, but why is that? Most days are a blur, in fact, I would even say most years have been a blur since having children. But sitting on the sofa, day in and day out, has become so very tedious. I thought I was feeling well on Sunday/Monday, so of course I was up a bit more doing what seemed to be small tasks. Small tasks are not so small when you have just had an organ removed, even with less invasive surgery. An organ gone, is just that, an organ gone. How can a body even know what to do with that? I mean, the thing has been there for 39 years and then in 2 hours- poof!- it's gone. I am not mourning the loss of my uterus. I am, however, simply bored out of my mind. I have watched way too much Travel Channel and DVDs. I am a tad frustrated that I can not even take a shower without being winded and totally exhausted. How did I ever run a half marathon?? Mind boggling... So though I am thankful to not have to do laundry and grocery shop or fix meals or make beds, etc. (because my amazing husband is doing the job of 2 right now), I am also sad that I can not do these little tasks that I so often loath doing. Crazy, huh? So until I can walk across the house w/o being winded, I will just have to continue to watch the minutes tick oh so very slowly by.....tick....tick....tick.